Gone For Good

Take a break..
Let's fly to London, New York, Canada, Dubai, Paris, Kuala Lumpur then back to Sabah ;D

January is never good

February was a skip
March pushed and shoved me
April made me grin 
May tear my brain apart
June taught me to remembered and let go
July had me holding in tight
August slipped away from me
September was blur
October was a mess
November left me reckless and restless
December was made up of favorites. Old and New

I don't wanna be lonely, or belong to mystery..
Sometimes it's not always easy being someone daughter; no matter whose daughter you are.
Life is full of screw-ups, thats just how life play out.. Everybody DIES, but not everybody LIVES.
I can keep a key from a colonel, I can stay away from a saint. But I don't know why it's so certain, that the best is yet to come!

At some point for some reason, you may find that this post is kinda sorta pointless or whatever you might think it is. It doesn't make a lot of sense right now, but it will... :]
I barely even can thinks straight! Because I haven't take a proper nap/sleep for the last 36 hours!!! HAHAHA 
There's always HOPE, for the HOPELESS.

Tomorrow Is Christmas

Happy & Merry Christmas Eve everyone :)

But.. as for me... it doesn't feel like Christmas at all... :| maybe;...

Let just relax, lay back, listen & enjoy the songs in the middle of the night/early in the morning.. ;)

dang it! I'm such a hopelessly hopeful dreamer ;P TEEHEE

14th December

Holidays are coming, examination are done for now
After half of a decade stressing, now Its time to relax
Its time to enjoy the holidays, Its time to sit down, lay back on the couch and forget all about high school..
Yet crisis, drama, stress, problems, and shit never seem to need a break.

Sorrow seems to conquer the days, leaving sadness to break the tourniquet
Slowly taken away the happiness bringing tears to the cheek

Lie never seem to be a problem, hiding the truth never seem to be false.
Its all just part of life cycle. That's all

HAHA! I just put on my braces last Monday.. And now I barely even can bite a rice AHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.
Such TORTURED, yet I don't regret on getting braces! TEEHEE :)
Just so you know I take ages just to brush/clean my teeth from now on. HAHA

Chasing the moon

"I'm sorry I'm not as pretty as you thought I'm."

I'm just like any other human beings around the world. I bleed when I cut, I blush when I'm embarrass, I died when I'm death and I live when I'm not death.

I'm a human being not a fucking genius robot. -.- I study/work my ass off  to score ACEs'.., I breath to survive, I crave for OXYGEN not for Money or some frickin' 'LOVE'.
I'm not a saint, neither a santo. I'm a teenage, I learn my lesson as I'm growing up. I dream to success, make my parents proud of me and try to give them a better a.k.a luxury life.

I'm half-vegetarian, I don't eat meat, or drink dairy milk. I don't wanna eat seafood either, yet I do/did eat cakes and eggs. I officially became a vegetarian on 17 August 2011. Why did I became a vegetarian...?? Nahh.., you gotta have to ask me in person to know why. ;P   
Every day I take a risk to live and enjoy my life. I'm allergy to bazillions of thing around the world.

Life is unpredictable, you may plan yet you can't........?? Can't...what?! hmm..~ idk what?!
You probably shouldn't get to know me more/deeper, because once you've know/ get close to me; I'm an angel's devil. TROLOLOLOL 

If you really don't know me; I'm kind..
If you don't know me; I'm great..
If you know me; I'm a vain but honest..
If you really get to know me, I'm MEAN!!
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!

Sorry for being such arrogant vain, I won't change my attitude/personality because I'm too selfish for my own goods.
It seems like being a saint neither a devil won't/couldn't really make a things go right. That's just part of world nature. You just have to learn how to act around the society and try not to be fools easily by the human beings. Let just accept the way how I'm.., Don't hate me for who I'm not instead appreciate me for who I'm.

p/s: I'll keep trying to improve my language. :] 

  


  

Cepumas

Finish my high school on 11/11/11. o.O
pretty awkward huh? what can I say??

Just so you know yesterday was the first day of SPM, and...... I...... screw it in Malay paper 2 !!
whaaaaaaat theeeeeeeee heckkkkkkkk was I'm doinggggg?!!!!
I've already lost >12 marks in paper 2!! I didn't have enough time to finish/answer all the question in section 2 due to wasting too much time in the section 1 !! It cause me to shed a tears after submitting the unfinished answer sheet.DANG! dammit! Why can't I just hold it till I got home?! Fuck Off!
Arghhhhhhhhhhh!! I'm so devastated right now! :/ I would trade my soul just to retake the test! AHAHAAH
But that would never happened in reality. I just had a bad day thats all. Sooner or later it will end instantly.
One more thing! I'm not going to get ceramic braces instead I'll get damon braces. 12/12/11 will be the date I start wearing braces and SPM will be over in 30 november !!

Academy of Art University

Received another mail from Academy of Art University :)

I'm interested in medical & surgery and graphic design photography.

I'm indeed of scholarship in pursuing my studies oversea.

Class of 5.2 High School 2011

I'll be graduating high school this December

Time go by so damn FAST

from minutes turns to months;

Last month I was taking my mid-term examination, This month I'm about to sit the SPM exam.., Next month I'll be finishing and graduating high school.
I can't wait to have a college/university life, yet I'm kinda nervous & worry to sit the SPM examination. :S

I'm screw in CHEMISTRY & ADDITIONAL MATHEMATICS. I barely even pass in these subjects, I'm afraid that these subjects might cause affect/effect in my future. I don't wanna mess up my academic.. That is the last thing I wanna do in my life right now. I need to improve my grades in ICT, Malay, Physic, Biology, Chemistry, Add-Maths, History, Moral and maintain my Aces in Mathematics and English.

I'm planning to made/create a year book for my last year of high school. I don't wanna lost all the memories that we have just because time go by so fast and our memories slowly fade away..
It might sound old-school but I think I really wanna do it for the memory class of 5.2 high school 2011. It might not exactly a book, but its more like a scrap book or journal or something that is sort of similar to yearbook.

In additional, I'm thinking of pursuing my studies in medical. I'm interested in becoming a MD. I'm would like to continue my studies in Foundation in Science or A-Level. You might think it's a tough course but I think its worth it to try for it. Moreover, I'm thinking about graphic design / photography as another optional course because its also one of my favored  fields that I'm in-to. 

TEEHEE.. :D give me some luck !!

Adam Levine

Dear Adam, why are you so HOT?!!
I adore adam levine so damn much. TEEHEE :]

I received a pack from Academy of Art University today.. 

I'm thinking of becoming a professional graphic design artist while becoming a surgeon.

hmm~ give me some luck :3

Last Friday, I went to a science club study tour trip a.k.a 'lawatan sambil belajar' or whatever you call it is. I had a great time with all of the club members. During the study tour, our first destination was the Lok Kawi Wildlife Park, then North Borneo Railway Train Station, finally Tanjung Aru Beach. 

p/s:This is my last year of high school 2011. ;)

Why named/titled 'stalker' the new flagcounter ?

Because that's what I think it suit for... :)

random thought ?

Ur real name is Ryann or stellyn

stellyn is my name. ryann is my crazy nickname!! 'ryan' is a nickname that my friends use to call me and to make a crack of me sometimes. Lol

random thought ?

Raise Your Sleeve

Raise your sleeve,

Share your Red;

Donate your blood…

You might save a life.

I gave/donated blood for the first time YESTERDAY!! at the high school blood drives

I'm sure it was pretty awesome.. Lol

From what I've known, if someone wants to donate their blood they must be at least 17 years old. Yet, actually I'm not officially 17 yet, but.. I was eligible to donate blood. hmm~ what can I say?? Maybe I'm just too fits for it ;D HAh

There are things that I get to know when/during/after donated my blood.. 

Which is :I'm B types blood group and I've lost 5 kg of my weight in the last few months (from 50 to 45 kg). I'm grateful that my weight is exactly 45 kg because one of the requirement to donate your blood are... you must weight 45 kg or above!

I'm among the earliest person to donate blood during the blood donation campaign. Everything went well during the process, I didn't faint or unconscious during the process.

Only that after the blood donating process went through, I'm kinda sorta feel sleepy during classes.

A lot of students also participate in the event, and some of the teachers also join and show their intention to save life other than wanting to encourage most students to participate and donate their blood for good deeds. 

p/s: I donate 350mL/cc of my B types blood during the process. 7 september '11

Give me some hope, I'm running out of luck...

Hey :)
Excels are over, yet I still need to study hard and work my ass off to score ACEs in SPM

For the first time in this year I pass my history test !! HAHA :D I'm proud of myself
I guess the late night studying and the numb-numbing hours spent on studying and revision payed off. From D to B !! It's a good progress right? Even though I didn't get ACE, at least my grades are getting better.

Just so you know, I might kill it in Maths but I screw it in Add-Maths :/
Once more...I FAIL in Add-Maths, I running out of charm.
Somebody please help me in Calculus, I reallyreallyreallyreally needed a helping hand, I'm numb in calculus.. I hate those dy/dx du/dv ''telur dinosaur'' or what so ever you call it is. *sigh*
Biology,Physics,Chemistry... what you got for me? can you please show me some love, my love for you are infinity.. TROLOLOLOLOLOL 


Despite all the damn thing, sooner or later all of the bad charm will instantly end.


Here we go... soon I'll be wearing braces. You might think/said that it was so freaking hurt/ugly/painful or whatever it is.., yet the result after 24 months of having it in your mouth was tremendous!! Trust me! all the pain/nerve-racking are worth it.


About the braces... I need to decide wether I want the ceramic one or the metal one.
Yet I choose to get/have half ceramic and half metal that might decrease the cost a little bit than having full ceramic braces. I know that ceramic brackets of braces was a bit pricey than metal brackets. But I don't want to get/have the full metal one. 
THANKS to my parents they encourage me in whatever my decision are.. 

'Money is never a problem if there's a desire of good deeds or benefits, and Money is never a problem if you aren't such a pessimistic or narrow-minded.'  stellyn levine

Awkward Moment

Something weird happens today...

Today is the most weirdest  day ever.. Wanna know why??

At some point for some reasons I find that it's awkward for me if I saw any of my friends/classmate/schoolmate outside the school when I'm shopping with my parents at mall or anywhere else.

In less than just 4 hours, I saw/accidentally meet 7 out of tons of my friends/classmate/schoolmate outside the school, at different place yet at the same day..

3 out of 7 of them I accidentally meet/saw them at my housing area. Just so you know, at the moment when I accidentally meet/saw the first 3 of them... I was ridding my bike cycling around the housing area with my niece and I was wearing my Pajamas shirt…!! Lol I don't know what was I thinking., and why did I wear my Pajamas when cycling.. why didn't I change my shirt before I went out to cycling?!! I'm kinda embarrass when they saw me cycling around in my Pajamas shirt.. and It's too weird for me when I bump into them while I was in messy.. Lol, HAHA.. 

The other 4 of them I accidentally meet/saw them at downtown while shopping for grocery and while paying at the counter. I smile and wave at each of them while my parents were next to me eyeing and watching at them. Luckily, while this time of awkward moment I was dress properly.. HAHA  

Dissapoint

FUCK OFF !!!

That is the most suitable words for this week..

Tons of shit happen this week, the probability of it might happen again for the next upcoming week are undefined. 

First of all 

Do you know what the heck was the pic above ?!


Hmm..., here we go.
I'll try to explain briefly and politely about the pic above
As you could see in the pic above ''JABATAN LATIHAN KHIDMAT NEGARA'' aka PLKN
It's a Malaysian Training Program and it's a crime if someone rebel to go to the program. You can only get an exception if you are mentally ill or undergoing drug rehabilitation or something similar to those conditions.


Unfortunately, I'm running out of luck... hmm, I'm selected to join this program and I'm devastated...  Lol
-___-



Life is HARD! yet I'm not gonna give up and I'll never back down! TEEHEE

90210

"The Future is OURS"

 

I love this TV shows, 90210
It was a new reincarnation of the 1991 classic favorite TV show.
I never watch the old version one, but all I know is just that I like this TV show a lot.
It taught me something about high school and gave me a good perspective/experience of it...

Tomorrow : Last day of 2011 1st semester

Tomorrow is the last day of school for this semester.

We'll play Cho Dai Di LIKE A BOSS all day long till the end of the class =D

Holidays are coming, examination are done for now
After half of a decade stressing, now it's time to rest
It's time to enjoy the fun, it's time to create the memories of last year in high school..
Yet crisis, drama, stress, problems, and shit never seem to need a break.

Sorrow seems to conquer the days, leaving sadness to break the tourniquet
Slowly taken away the happiness bringing tears to the cheek

Lie never seem to be a problem, hiding the truth never seem to be false.
Its all just part of life cycle. That's all

Holiday

It's holiday again, another 1st semester had gone by... a semester that we wont be able to get back.
Yet again, I'm sick... -___-
Just like last year holiday, it seems like my immune system aren't that strong enough to fight all the viruses that damaging my body immune system. Lol.. haha
Just so you know, I FAIL my additional mathematics test!! I got only 24% on the test and I'm NOT proud of it. The only subjects that I get Ace as the grades for now are English...
Hmm~ I'm indeed of motivation right now...

p/s: Give me a private tutor that can teach me all those killer-subjects so that I could get 10 Aces' + in my SPM =D Amen.

DayDreaming

Day by day...
Dream by dream...

That's how I go through this recent month.. daydreaming each day, wish to have those old days back.. where all I get in my exam result are only A's and B's.
Now days,
I hardly paying attention to the teacher during class.. all I'm doing is yawning. it's not that I didn't get enough sleep but I just don't know why.maybe I didn't get enough oxygen? Lol  Another irritated thing that I usually do are.. I pay more attention to some other else then the teacher teaching in front of the class, such as when someone is walking I easily get distract by them..
TELL me what to do?? I'm so numb -__-
All I could do for this week of exam are just try not to fail all the important subjects. Even thought I already fail ICT subject @.@ 


p/s pray for me so that I'll get straight A's in my SPM (Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia).It's a national examination for all fifth-year secondary school students in Malaysia. Hah =D

23 February 2011

A
great
dedicated
English
teacher
retired
today

(Mr. Liew Chin Loi)
1973-2011

Things Happened

High-School

Last Year of high-school officially start tomorrow :)

Happy New Year !!

2011