Give Me Some HOPE

This is the part where DECISION is all matter.

Time go by so FAST

From minutes turn to months..
High school to College..
From 17 to 21.. 

Ironically 

I haven't made up my mind yet. FIS or IT Engineering or Graphic Design ? hmm...

First and foremost, I would like to mention about PLKN a.k.a Malaysian Training Program.
I'm totally screw up!! Arghhhhhhhhhh... :| I'll be attending the program by early next month. JEEZZZZZZ I almost forgot that I was chosen to attend this fricking thing. Trololol
Well.., what more can I do to change the system? Huh? Let just accept it with an (forced) open heart. haha!
Hopefully I'll stay alive during the training till the end. xD
Let it be.. What will be; will be.~
Terima ja la dengan redha, apa juga boleh buat. Hmm..~

"It's Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope I had the time of my life.
For what it's worth it was worth all the while.."

Truth to be told:

I wanna become a doctor yet I'm worry that I can't 'survive' during the process of becoming a surgeon.

I like ICT subject yet I'm concern that it's not what I wish to live with or pursue furthermore;

I'm interested in graphic design but I doubt that it can pay well for/in the future.

I'm running out of ideas! I need an escape from life for a while...

Life as a Young Adult

''Life is a beautiful melody. Sometimes you flub the lyrics, but don't stop singing...''

So.. Here is the part where I supposed to tell you that it's not scary..
As a high school leaver, I've to decide what's my plan for the future. I'm thinking of pursuing my study in medical or art in graphic design.. :]

Life is so unpredictable
I'm not a fan of the UNKNOWN. The UNKNOWN can change your entire life in an instant. The UNKNOWN can take everything away from you and never give it back. Your life can end in a flash before you even have time to know it's over.

I'm dreaming/daydreaming to study oversea/aboard, pursuing further study levels at foreign country to experience different lifestyle and get to know more about their culture.. thus, I can improve/learn my skills & life experience as a young adult by taking care of my own; sort of like being 'independent'... & learn not to count on anyone else But myself. Haha!

P/s: I dreamed of flying away from my home last night. Trololol, AHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

License

Somehow for some reason I don't have the urge/enthusiasm/interest or whatsoever you call it is in driving. I rather and prefer more being a passenger than a driver.

I don't hate driving;
I just didn't quiet enjoy driving as much as some of my friends are...

Yet the feeling of Anxiety, Panic, Nervous, Scared, Fear, & Worry never seem to strike when I'm driving..
The only feeling I have : 'blank'?
It's not that I didn't have any clue on how to drive a car.. I do know how to drive but, I just doesn't seem to enjoy it. Trololol

I'm done with the license now. :))

Gone For Good

Take a break..
Let's fly to London, New York, Canada, Dubai, Paris, Kuala Lumpur then back to Sabah ;D

January is never good

February was a skip
March pushed and shoved me
April made me grin 
May tear my brain apart
June taught me to remembered and let go
July had me holding in tight
August slipped away from me
September was blur
October was a mess
November left me reckless and restless
December was made up of favorites. Old and New

I don't wanna be lonely, or belong to mystery..
Sometimes it's not always easy being someone daughter; no matter whose daughter you are.
Life is full of screw-ups, thats just how life play out.. Everybody DIES, but not everybody LIVES.
I can keep a key from a colonel, I can stay away from a saint. But I don't know why it's so certain, that the best is yet to come!

At some point for some reason, you may find that this post is kinda sorta pointless or whatever you might think it is. It doesn't make a lot of sense right now, but it will... :]
I barely even can thinks straight! Because I haven't take a proper nap/sleep for the last 36 hours!!! HAHAHA 
There's always HOPE, for the HOPELESS.