Gone For Good

Take a break..
Let's fly to London, New York, Canada, Dubai, Paris, Kuala Lumpur then back to Sabah ;D

January is never good

February was a skip
March pushed and shoved me
April made me grin 
May tear my brain apart
June taught me to remembered and let go
July had me holding in tight
August slipped away from me
September was blur
October was a mess
November left me reckless and restless
December was made up of favorites. Old and New

I don't wanna be lonely, or belong to mystery..
Sometimes it's not always easy being someone daughter; no matter whose daughter you are.
Life is full of screw-ups, thats just how life play out.. Everybody DIES, but not everybody LIVES.
I can keep a key from a colonel, I can stay away from a saint. But I don't know why it's so certain, that the best is yet to come!

At some point for some reason, you may find that this post is kinda sorta pointless or whatever you might think it is. It doesn't make a lot of sense right now, but it will... :]
I barely even can thinks straight! Because I haven't take a proper nap/sleep for the last 36 hours!!! HAHAHA 
There's always HOPE, for the HOPELESS.

Tomorrow Is Christmas

Happy & Merry Christmas Eve everyone :)

But.. as for me... it doesn't feel like Christmas at all... :| maybe;...

Let just relax, lay back, listen & enjoy the songs in the middle of the night/early in the morning.. ;)

dang it! I'm such a hopelessly hopeful dreamer ;P TEEHEE

Chasing the moon

"I'm sorry I'm not as pretty as you thought I'm."

I'm just like any other human beings around the world. I bleed when I cut, I blush when I'm embarrass, I died when I'm death and I live when I'm not death.

I'm a human being not a fucking genius robot. -.- I study/work my ass off  to score ACEs'.., I breath to survive, I crave for OXYGEN not for Money or some frickin' 'LOVE'.
I'm not a saint, neither a santo. I'm a teenage, I learn my lesson as I'm growing up. I dream to success, make my parents proud of me and try to give them a better a.k.a luxury life.

I'm half-vegetarian, I don't eat meat, or drink dairy milk. I don't wanna eat seafood either, yet I do/did eat cakes and eggs. I officially became a vegetarian on 17 August 2011. Why did I became a vegetarian...?? Nahh.., you gotta have to ask me in person to know why. ;P   
Every day I take a risk to live and enjoy my life. I'm allergy to bazillions of thing around the world.

Life is unpredictable, you may plan yet you can't........?? Can't...what?! hmm..~ idk what?!
You probably shouldn't get to know me more/deeper, because once you've know/ get close to me; I'm an angel's devil. TROLOLOLOL 

If you really don't know me; I'm kind..
If you don't know me; I'm great..
If you know me; I'm a vain but honest..
If you really get to know me, I'm MEAN!!
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!

Sorry for being such arrogant vain, I won't change my attitude/personality because I'm too selfish for my own goods.
It seems like being a saint neither a devil won't/couldn't really make a things go right. That's just part of world nature. You just have to learn how to act around the society and try not to be fools easily by the human beings. Let just accept the way how I'm.., Don't hate me for who I'm not instead appreciate me for who I'm.

p/s: I'll keep trying to improve my language. :] 

  


  

Cepumas

Finish my high school on 11/11/11. o.O
pretty awkward huh? what can I say??

Just so you know yesterday was the first day of SPM, and...... I...... screw it in Malay paper 2 !!
whaaaaaaat theeeeeeeee heckkkkkkkk was I'm doinggggg?!!!!
I've already lost >12 marks in paper 2!! I didn't have enough time to finish/answer all the question in section 2 due to wasting too much time in the section 1 !! It cause me to shed a tears after submitting the unfinished answer sheet.DANG! dammit! Why can't I just hold it till I got home?! Fuck Off!
Arghhhhhhhhhhh!! I'm so devastated right now! :/ I would trade my soul just to retake the test! AHAHAAH
But that would never happened in reality. I just had a bad day thats all. Sooner or later it will end instantly.
One more thing! I'm not going to get ceramic braces instead I'll get damon braces. 12/12/11 will be the date I start wearing braces and SPM will be over in 30 november !!

Academy of Art University

Received another mail from Academy of Art University :)

I'm interested in medical & surgery and graphic design photography.

I'm indeed of scholarship in pursuing my studies oversea.

Class of 5.2 High School 2011

I'll be graduating high school this December

Time go by so damn FAST

from minutes turns to months;

Last month I was taking my mid-term examination, This month I'm about to sit the SPM exam.., Next month I'll be finishing and graduating high school.
I can't wait to have a college/university life, yet I'm kinda nervous & worry to sit the SPM examination. :S

I'm screw in CHEMISTRY & ADDITIONAL MATHEMATICS. I barely even pass in these subjects, I'm afraid that these subjects might cause affect/effect in my future. I don't wanna mess up my academic.. That is the last thing I wanna do in my life right now. I need to improve my grades in ICT, Malay, Physic, Biology, Chemistry, Add-Maths, History, Moral and maintain my Aces in Mathematics and English.

I'm planning to made/create a year book for my last year of high school. I don't wanna lost all the memories that we have just because time go by so fast and our memories slowly fade away..
It might sound old-school but I think I really wanna do it for the memory class of 5.2 high school 2011. It might not exactly a book, but its more like a scrap book or journal or something that is sort of similar to yearbook.

In additional, I'm thinking of pursuing my studies in medical. I'm interested in becoming a MD. I'm would like to continue my studies in Foundation in Science or A-Level. You might think it's a tough course but I think its worth it to try for it. Moreover, I'm thinking about graphic design / photography as another optional course because its also one of my favored  fields that I'm in-to. 

TEEHEE.. :D give me some luck !!

Adam Levine

Dear Adam, why are you so HOT?!!
I adore adam levine so damn much. TEEHEE :]

I received a pack from Academy of Art University today.. 

I'm thinking of becoming a professional graphic design artist while becoming a surgeon.

hmm~ give me some luck :3

Last Friday, I went to a science club study tour trip a.k.a 'lawatan sambil belajar' or whatever you call it is. I had a great time with all of the club members. During the study tour, our first destination was the Lok Kawi Wildlife Park, then North Borneo Railway Train Station, finally Tanjung Aru Beach. 

p/s:This is my last year of high school 2011. ;)

Give me some hope, I'm running out of luck...

Hey :)
Excels are over, yet I still need to study hard and work my ass off to score ACEs in SPM

For the first time in this year I pass my history test !! HAHA :D I'm proud of myself
I guess the late night studying and the numb-numbing hours spent on studying and revision payed off. From D to B !! It's a good progress right? Even though I didn't get ACE, at least my grades are getting better.

Just so you know, I might kill it in Maths but I screw it in Add-Maths :/
Once more...I FAIL in Add-Maths, I running out of charm.
Somebody please help me in Calculus, I reallyreallyreallyreally needed a helping hand, I'm numb in calculus.. I hate those dy/dx du/dv ''telur dinosaur'' or what so ever you call it is. *sigh*
Biology,Physics,Chemistry... what you got for me? can you please show me some love, my love for you are infinity.. TROLOLOLOLOLOL 


Despite all the damn thing, sooner or later all of the bad charm will instantly end.


Here we go... soon I'll be wearing braces. You might think/said that it was so freaking hurt/ugly/painful or whatever it is.., yet the result after 24 months of having it in your mouth was tremendous!! Trust me! all the pain/nerve-racking are worth it.


About the braces... I need to decide wether I want the ceramic one or the metal one.
Yet I choose to get/have half ceramic and half metal that might decrease the cost a little bit than having full ceramic braces. I know that ceramic brackets of braces was a bit pricey than metal brackets. But I don't want to get/have the full metal one. 
THANKS to my parents they encourage me in whatever my decision are.. 

'Money is never a problem if there's a desire of good deeds or benefits, and Money is never a problem if you aren't such a pessimistic or narrow-minded.'  stellyn levine

Dissapoint

FUCK OFF !!!

That is the most suitable words for this week..

Tons of shit happen this week, the probability of it might happen again for the next upcoming week are undefined. 

First of all 

Do you know what the heck was the pic above ?!


Hmm..., here we go.
I'll try to explain briefly and politely about the pic above
As you could see in the pic above ''JABATAN LATIHAN KHIDMAT NEGARA'' aka PLKN
It's a Malaysian Training Program and it's a crime if someone rebel to go to the program. You can only get an exception if you are mentally ill or undergoing drug rehabilitation or something similar to those conditions.


Unfortunately, I'm running out of luck... hmm, I'm selected to join this program and I'm devastated...  Lol
-___-



Life is HARD! yet I'm not gonna give up and I'll never back down! TEEHEE

Tomorrow : Last day of 2011 1st semester

Tomorrow is the last day of school for this semester.

We'll play Cho Dai Di LIKE A BOSS all day long till the end of the class =D

Holidays are coming, examination are done for now
After half of a decade stressing, now it's time to rest
It's time to enjoy the fun, it's time to create the memories of last year in high school..
Yet crisis, drama, stress, problems, and shit never seem to need a break.

Sorrow seems to conquer the days, leaving sadness to break the tourniquet
Slowly taken away the happiness bringing tears to the cheek

Lie never seem to be a problem, hiding the truth never seem to be false.
Its all just part of life cycle. That's all

23 February 2011

A
great
dedicated
English
teacher
retired
today

(Mr. Liew Chin Loi)
1973-2011

Things Happened

High-School

Last Year of high-school officially start tomorrow :)

2011

I think after high-school I am going to somewhere away from trouble 

Things that I'm gonna do after high-school :

1. dye my hair whether orange/red auburn/purple/blue or any other gorgeous color
2. shave my hair.. (after dye my hair for weeks or whenever I want) ahahaha !!
3. apply as many college/university  application as I could/want (more then 10 maybe) xD
4. travel around the world
5. learns to play as many instrument as I able/manage to 
6. Tattoo.. but i don't know where or of what
7. Enjoy my FREEDOM !!!