Almost 18

I'm in the process of growing up

I get to do as many mistake as I have to,

I learned from my mistake.

I don't have the best out of everything in life 

I'm just good at making the best of everything that life brings along

And someday, I hope that my curiosity will be replaced by something beautiful 

        

I need fantasy not reality, I have enough reality all this years

I live in a world of fantasy, so keep your reality away from me

I'm 153 cm instead of 160 cm

Weight 47 kg instead of 45 kg,

I'm almost 18 y/o instead of 8 y/o.

I'm 50% Chinese + 50% Kadazan Dusun 

Instead of 50% Redhead + 50% Eurasian

And I'm Asian  

It's already December.

It's funny how day by day,

Nothing changes But

when you look back.

Everything is different.

It's funny how I just don't care anymore

And I'm just a kid. Who grew up way too FAST!

Conclusion = Time does fly. 

p/s : I'm addicted to 9Gag :P

 

I won't Give Up

Winter have come and gone

Lost memories grew into trees, cover the doors and swallow the cure HAHA! 

Now we're back to the beginning;
So do the legend begins with a whole new chapter of Life as a Young Adult.
It's a story and no one knows yet.
And I haven't figure out what do I need more and I don't know what I want, don't ask me why. Cause I'm still trying to figure it out what's down this life's journey. I'm just trying to see through all the possibilities that I have even though I'm not the only one that feels the way I do.

Now that I'm on my own, that's all I know. I'll be strong and I'll be wrong but life goes on. I'm just trying to find a place in this world. Ahah!  :P What more do I need? Tomorrow's just a mystery, but that's okay. Because I'm a girl on a mission & I'm ready for upcoming adventure. YEAAAH!!

As you will quickly learn in life; Maths determine everything.
Maths is in beauty, how appealing person's face is determined by the spacing and distance of the features
(eyes, nose, ears, mouth, lip, jawline, skull-structure etc.)
Math is in every shape you see, every physical force that acts with or against you.
Maths is the reason you can download a 2hours movie in 10minutes online.
Maths' the reason every bridge or tunnel you drive-thru doesn't collapse. TEEHEE!  

Life as a Young Adult

''Life is a beautiful melody. Sometimes you flub the lyrics, but don't stop singing...''

So.. Here is the part where I supposed to tell you that it's not scary..
As a high school leaver, I've to decide what's my plan for the future. I'm thinking of pursuing my study in medical or art in graphic design.. :]

Life is so unpredictable
I'm not a fan of the UNKNOWN. The UNKNOWN can change your entire life in an instant. The UNKNOWN can take everything away from you and never give it back. Your life can end in a flash before you even have time to know it's over.

I'm dreaming/daydreaming to study oversea/aboard, pursuing further study levels at foreign country to experience different lifestyle and get to know more about their culture.. thus, I can improve/learn my skills & life experience as a young adult by taking care of my own; sort of like being 'independent'... & learn not to count on anyone else But myself. Haha!

P/s: I dreamed of flying away from my home last night. Trololol, AHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

License

Somehow for some reason I don't have the urge/enthusiasm/interest or whatsoever you call it is in driving. I rather and prefer more being a passenger than a driver.

I don't hate driving;
I just didn't quiet enjoy driving as much as some of my friends are...

Yet the feeling of Anxiety, Panic, Nervous, Scared, Fear, & Worry never seem to strike when I'm driving..
The only feeling I have : 'blank'?
It's not that I didn't have any clue on how to drive a car.. I do know how to drive but, I just doesn't seem to enjoy it. Trololol

I'm done with the license now. :))

Gone For Good

Take a break..
Let's fly to London, New York, Canada, Dubai, Paris, Kuala Lumpur then back to Sabah ;D

January is never good

February was a skip
March pushed and shoved me
April made me grin 
May tear my brain apart
June taught me to remembered and let go
July had me holding in tight
August slipped away from me
September was blur
October was a mess
November left me reckless and restless
December was made up of favorites. Old and New

I don't wanna be lonely, or belong to mystery..
Sometimes it's not always easy being someone daughter; no matter whose daughter you are.
Life is full of screw-ups, thats just how life play out.. Everybody DIES, but not everybody LIVES.
I can keep a key from a colonel, I can stay away from a saint. But I don't know why it's so certain, that the best is yet to come!

At some point for some reason, you may find that this post is kinda sorta pointless or whatever you might think it is. It doesn't make a lot of sense right now, but it will... :]
I barely even can thinks straight! Because I haven't take a proper nap/sleep for the last 36 hours!!! HAHAHA 
There's always HOPE, for the HOPELESS.

14th December

Holidays are coming, examination are done for now
After half of a decade stressing, now Its time to relax
Its time to enjoy the holidays, Its time to sit down, lay back on the couch and forget all about high school..
Yet crisis, drama, stress, problems, and shit never seem to need a break.

Sorrow seems to conquer the days, leaving sadness to break the tourniquet
Slowly taken away the happiness bringing tears to the cheek

Lie never seem to be a problem, hiding the truth never seem to be false.
Its all just part of life cycle. That's all

HAHA! I just put on my braces last Monday.. And now I barely even can bite a rice AHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.
Such TORTURED, yet I don't regret on getting braces! TEEHEE :)
Just so you know I take ages just to brush/clean my teeth from now on. HAHA

Chasing the moon

"I'm sorry I'm not as pretty as you thought I'm."

I'm just like any other human beings around the world. I bleed when I cut, I blush when I'm embarrass, I died when I'm death and I live when I'm not death.

I'm a human being not a fucking genius robot. -.- I study/work my ass off  to score ACEs'.., I breath to survive, I crave for OXYGEN not for Money or some frickin' 'LOVE'.
I'm not a saint, neither a santo. I'm a teenage, I learn my lesson as I'm growing up. I dream to success, make my parents proud of me and try to give them a better a.k.a luxury life.

I'm half-vegetarian, I don't eat meat, or drink dairy milk. I don't wanna eat seafood either, yet I do/did eat cakes and eggs. I officially became a vegetarian on 17 August 2011. Why did I became a vegetarian...?? Nahh.., you gotta have to ask me in person to know why. ;P   
Every day I take a risk to live and enjoy my life. I'm allergy to bazillions of thing around the world.

Life is unpredictable, you may plan yet you can't........?? Can't...what?! hmm..~ idk what?!
You probably shouldn't get to know me more/deeper, because once you've know/ get close to me; I'm an angel's devil. TROLOLOLOL 

If you really don't know me; I'm kind..
If you don't know me; I'm great..
If you know me; I'm a vain but honest..
If you really get to know me, I'm MEAN!!
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!

Sorry for being such arrogant vain, I won't change my attitude/personality because I'm too selfish for my own goods.
It seems like being a saint neither a devil won't/couldn't really make a things go right. That's just part of world nature. You just have to learn how to act around the society and try not to be fools easily by the human beings. Let just accept the way how I'm.., Don't hate me for who I'm not instead appreciate me for who I'm.

p/s: I'll keep trying to improve my language. :] 

  


  

Random Thoughts

• I’m perfectly fine. Thank you for asking. =l hah..
• I want a tattoo. I don’t know where or of what.
• I won’t have anything to look forward to on this coming holidays.
• I wish everyday is Christmas!! I want and LOVE Christmas Eve so much. =)
• Although my examination are ongoing during this 3 weeks on row, I'm still playing games instead of doing some revision and that made me quite nervous when sitting on the test.
• December 14? Gift? Present? Movies? Starbucks? PLEASE, anyone? 
• I think my English screw up.
• It’s going to rain tomorrow. My spidey senses are tingling. I’m freezing right now.
• SOMEONE BUY/MAKE ME SOME CREPES. Swear to freakin’ God. I will eat your head off. >:/
• I think I forgot to write my name on my English examination paper.. :D (hah..!! WTH?!)

Dang..!!

what kind of animals or vehicle would make a sound of 'Dang!' ?? o.O Lol. haha
what  a silly question xD


Its almost the end of first week holidays.. what did I do? huh?? dayemm~! I did nothing but just wasting those precious moment for online, playing games and watch TV -_____-
I'm soo numb... and I'm speechless, got nothing to talk about or jokes bout'....
it's kinda bored, spending this summer weekends with only eating the chubby hubby ice cream while watch TV and online.. =/


I'm seriously indeed of a summer brilliant exotic precious extraordinary vacation!!


btw just so you know.. I'm dying for my PHYSIC subject =(  

My opinion

It's not the drug false when someone OD and DIED !!

C'mon~!!! drug is not 'bad' in a good ways.
it just that people doesn't really know how to use it in a proper way.
Don't hate drugs..!! don't judge or cursing 'bout drugs. Think twice., don't be fool

One day, you will realize that drugs is important and useful.. maybe not now, but one day you'll know why i'm saying' that drugs is not 'bad'..