Life as a Young Adult

''Life is a beautiful melody. Sometimes you flub the lyrics, but don't stop singing...''

So.. Here is the part where I supposed to tell you that it's not scary..
As a high school leaver, I've to decide what's my plan for the future. I'm thinking of pursuing my study in medical or art in graphic design.. :]

Life is so unpredictable
I'm not a fan of the UNKNOWN. The UNKNOWN can change your entire life in an instant. The UNKNOWN can take everything away from you and never give it back. Your life can end in a flash before you even have time to know it's over.

I'm dreaming/daydreaming to study oversea/aboard, pursuing further study levels at foreign country to experience different lifestyle and get to know more about their culture.. thus, I can improve/learn my skills & life experience as a young adult by taking care of my own; sort of like being 'independent'... & learn not to count on anyone else But myself. Haha!

P/s: I dreamed of flying away from my home last night. Trololol, AHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

License

Somehow for some reason I don't have the urge/enthusiasm/interest or whatsoever you call it is in driving. I rather and prefer more being a passenger than a driver.

I don't hate driving;
I just didn't quiet enjoy driving as much as some of my friends are...

Yet the feeling of Anxiety, Panic, Nervous, Scared, Fear, & Worry never seem to strike when I'm driving..
The only feeling I have : 'blank'?
It's not that I didn't have any clue on how to drive a car.. I do know how to drive but, I just doesn't seem to enjoy it. Trololol

I'm done with the license now. :))

Gone For Good

Take a break..
Let's fly to London, New York, Canada, Dubai, Paris, Kuala Lumpur then back to Sabah ;D

January is never good

February was a skip
March pushed and shoved me
April made me grin 
May tear my brain apart
June taught me to remembered and let go
July had me holding in tight
August slipped away from me
September was blur
October was a mess
November left me reckless and restless
December was made up of favorites. Old and New

I don't wanna be lonely, or belong to mystery..
Sometimes it's not always easy being someone daughter; no matter whose daughter you are.
Life is full of screw-ups, thats just how life play out.. Everybody DIES, but not everybody LIVES.
I can keep a key from a colonel, I can stay away from a saint. But I don't know why it's so certain, that the best is yet to come!

At some point for some reason, you may find that this post is kinda sorta pointless or whatever you might think it is. It doesn't make a lot of sense right now, but it will... :]
I barely even can thinks straight! Because I haven't take a proper nap/sleep for the last 36 hours!!! HAHAHA 
There's always HOPE, for the HOPELESS.

Tomorrow Is Christmas

Happy & Merry Christmas Eve everyone :)

But.. as for me... it doesn't feel like Christmas at all... :| maybe;...

Let just relax, lay back, listen & enjoy the songs in the middle of the night/early in the morning.. ;)

dang it! I'm such a hopelessly hopeful dreamer ;P TEEHEE

14th December

Holidays are coming, examination are done for now
After half of a decade stressing, now Its time to relax
Its time to enjoy the holidays, Its time to sit down, lay back on the couch and forget all about high school..
Yet crisis, drama, stress, problems, and shit never seem to need a break.

Sorrow seems to conquer the days, leaving sadness to break the tourniquet
Slowly taken away the happiness bringing tears to the cheek

Lie never seem to be a problem, hiding the truth never seem to be false.
Its all just part of life cycle. That's all

HAHA! I just put on my braces last Monday.. And now I barely even can bite a rice AHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.
Such TORTURED, yet I don't regret on getting braces! TEEHEE :)
Just so you know I take ages just to brush/clean my teeth from now on. HAHA

Chasing the moon

"I'm sorry I'm not as pretty as you thought I'm."

I'm just like any other human beings around the world. I bleed when I cut, I blush when I'm embarrass, I died when I'm death and I live when I'm not death.

I'm a human being not a fucking genius robot. -.- I study/work my ass off  to score ACEs'.., I breath to survive, I crave for OXYGEN not for Money or some frickin' 'LOVE'.
I'm not a saint, neither a santo. I'm a teenage, I learn my lesson as I'm growing up. I dream to success, make my parents proud of me and try to give them a better a.k.a luxury life.

I'm half-vegetarian, I don't eat meat, or drink dairy milk. I don't wanna eat seafood either, yet I do/did eat cakes and eggs. I officially became a vegetarian on 17 August 2011. Why did I became a vegetarian...?? Nahh.., you gotta have to ask me in person to know why. ;P   
Every day I take a risk to live and enjoy my life. I'm allergy to bazillions of thing around the world.

Life is unpredictable, you may plan yet you can't........?? Can't...what?! hmm..~ idk what?!
You probably shouldn't get to know me more/deeper, because once you've know/ get close to me; I'm an angel's devil. TROLOLOLOL 

If you really don't know me; I'm kind..
If you don't know me; I'm great..
If you know me; I'm a vain but honest..
If you really get to know me, I'm MEAN!!
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!

Sorry for being such arrogant vain, I won't change my attitude/personality because I'm too selfish for my own goods.
It seems like being a saint neither a devil won't/couldn't really make a things go right. That's just part of world nature. You just have to learn how to act around the society and try not to be fools easily by the human beings. Let just accept the way how I'm.., Don't hate me for who I'm not instead appreciate me for who I'm.

p/s: I'll keep trying to improve my language. :] 

  


  

Cepumas

Finish my high school on 11/11/11. o.O
pretty awkward huh? what can I say??

Just so you know yesterday was the first day of SPM, and...... I...... screw it in Malay paper 2 !!
whaaaaaaat theeeeeeeee heckkkkkkkk was I'm doinggggg?!!!!
I've already lost >12 marks in paper 2!! I didn't have enough time to finish/answer all the question in section 2 due to wasting too much time in the section 1 !! It cause me to shed a tears after submitting the unfinished answer sheet.DANG! dammit! Why can't I just hold it till I got home?! Fuck Off!
Arghhhhhhhhhhh!! I'm so devastated right now! :/ I would trade my soul just to retake the test! AHAHAAH
But that would never happened in reality. I just had a bad day thats all. Sooner or later it will end instantly.
One more thing! I'm not going to get ceramic braces instead I'll get damon braces. 12/12/11 will be the date I start wearing braces and SPM will be over in 30 november !!