Mess up

Time go by so damn fast..
Now that I'm in college, I still kinda sorta have no idea what was really going on with my life
Am I doing it right? Did I made a wrong decision? Did I choose the right pathway? Will I be regret with the decision that I've made? Am I going to keep hanging on wondering what if I choose it differently? I'm full of curiosity..

Some say that college life is  pretty cool and great.. yeah, yeah.. yeah.. I can't denied that college life's is kinda interesting yet it wasn't really 100% all are awesome if you didn't find or associate with the right society/people. Hahahh

One thing for sure to keep in mind while enjoying life as a young college freshmen are.... remember that grades and studies doesn't give a fuck if you are tired energetic smart-ass or some kind of genius genetic mutation. No matter what, grades still differentiate whether you have the potential to become Bill Gates or some lame-ass rich bastard.

Discrimination happened everywhere every-time anywhere you are, just because they said they are opened-minded doesn't mean they really are! It's a LIE. Maybe some of them doesn't really show it and you can't really tell that if they're discriminator or not because they really good at hiding it, which are great hypocrite yet deep sown inside in the bottom of their heart actually THEY ARE JUDGING YOU BASED ON YOUR GRADES, TEST & EXAMINATION MARKS!

Basically my life is pretty good right now.. I got love I got life and that's enough for now. Keep on having faith; we feel sorrow we feel pain but there's sunshine after rain. I'm alright to believe in that.

All I want to say for now is just thank you.
you were mine once :)

Andy Love You Stellyn
ALYS means; Just in case if you'e been wondering for so long.
Thank you for nothing

Almost 18

I'm in the process of growing up

I get to do as many mistake as I have to,

I learned from my mistake.

I don't have the best out of everything in life 

I'm just good at making the best of everything that life brings along

And someday, I hope that my curiosity will be replaced by something beautiful 

        

I need fantasy not reality, I have enough reality all this years

I live in a world of fantasy, so keep your reality away from me

I'm 153 cm instead of 160 cm

Weight 47 kg instead of 45 kg,

I'm almost 18 y/o instead of 8 y/o.

I'm 50% Chinese + 50% Kadazan Dusun 

Instead of 50% Redhead + 50% Eurasian

And I'm Asian  

It's already December.

It's funny how day by day,

Nothing changes But

when you look back.

Everything is different.

It's funny how I just don't care anymore

And I'm just a kid. Who grew up way too FAST!

Conclusion = Time does fly. 

p/s : I'm addicted to 9Gag :P

 

November 2012 is gone

I didn't blog much, or... did I?
As I mention in my last post, in early May 2012 - July 2012 I'll be attending the Malaysian National Service Training Program a.k.a PLKN (Program Latihan Khidmat Negara) and that's one of the reason why I've been MIA. ;P TEEHEE  

Truth to be told... After I participate and join the program, I slowly start to change my perception & perspective about the program. As I've said before, I thought the program was sucks, waste of time, boring and worthless.. But in the end its all turned out to be just fine! It was delightful and fun. Just so you know, I've learned a lot things and gain some knowledge plus trillion zillion of experience about camp life during the program. Not just  knowledge and experience I've gain but I also gain tons of new friends from different culture and background such as Orang asli malaya, Thai-Chinese, Pure malaya chinese, Murut, Bisayah, Melanau, Bajau darat/laut, etc.

 If you give me one more chance to participate or join this program once more, definitely I won't waste it. Ahah!

I won't Give Up

Winter have come and gone

Lost memories grew into trees, cover the doors and swallow the cure HAHA! 

Now we're back to the beginning;
So do the legend begins with a whole new chapter of Life as a Young Adult.
It's a story and no one knows yet.
And I haven't figure out what do I need more and I don't know what I want, don't ask me why. Cause I'm still trying to figure it out what's down this life's journey. I'm just trying to see through all the possibilities that I have even though I'm not the only one that feels the way I do.

Now that I'm on my own, that's all I know. I'll be strong and I'll be wrong but life goes on. I'm just trying to find a place in this world. Ahah!  :P What more do I need? Tomorrow's just a mystery, but that's okay. Because I'm a girl on a mission & I'm ready for upcoming adventure. YEAAAH!!

As you will quickly learn in life; Maths determine everything.
Maths is in beauty, how appealing person's face is determined by the spacing and distance of the features
(eyes, nose, ears, mouth, lip, jawline, skull-structure etc.)
Math is in every shape you see, every physical force that acts with or against you.
Maths is the reason you can download a 2hours movie in 10minutes online.
Maths' the reason every bridge or tunnel you drive-thru doesn't collapse. TEEHEE!  

Give Me Some HOPE

This is the part where DECISION is all matter.

Time go by so FAST

From minutes turn to months..
High school to College..
From 17 to 21.. 

Ironically 

I haven't made up my mind yet. FIS or IT Engineering or Graphic Design ? hmm...

First and foremost, I would like to mention about PLKN a.k.a Malaysian Training Program.
I'm totally screw up!! Arghhhhhhhhhh... :| I'll be attending the program by early next month. JEEZZZZZZ I almost forgot that I was chosen to attend this fricking thing. Trololol
Well.., what more can I do to change the system? Huh? Let just accept it with an (forced) open heart. haha!
Hopefully I'll stay alive during the training till the end. xD
Let it be.. What will be; will be.~
Terima ja la dengan redha, apa juga boleh buat. Hmm..~

"It's Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope I had the time of my life.
For what it's worth it was worth all the while.."

Truth to be told:

I wanna become a doctor yet I'm worry that I can't 'survive' during the process of becoming a surgeon.

I like ICT subject yet I'm concern that it's not what I wish to live with or pursue furthermore;

I'm interested in graphic design but I doubt that it can pay well for/in the future.

I'm running out of ideas! I need an escape from life for a while...

Life as a Young Adult

''Life is a beautiful melody. Sometimes you flub the lyrics, but don't stop singing...''

So.. Here is the part where I supposed to tell you that it's not scary..
As a high school leaver, I've to decide what's my plan for the future. I'm thinking of pursuing my study in medical or art in graphic design.. :]

Life is so unpredictable
I'm not a fan of the UNKNOWN. The UNKNOWN can change your entire life in an instant. The UNKNOWN can take everything away from you and never give it back. Your life can end in a flash before you even have time to know it's over.

I'm dreaming/daydreaming to study oversea/aboard, pursuing further study levels at foreign country to experience different lifestyle and get to know more about their culture.. thus, I can improve/learn my skills & life experience as a young adult by taking care of my own; sort of like being 'independent'... & learn not to count on anyone else But myself. Haha!

P/s: I dreamed of flying away from my home last night. Trololol, AHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

License

Somehow for some reason I don't have the urge/enthusiasm/interest or whatsoever you call it is in driving. I rather and prefer more being a passenger than a driver.

I don't hate driving;
I just didn't quiet enjoy driving as much as some of my friends are...

Yet the feeling of Anxiety, Panic, Nervous, Scared, Fear, & Worry never seem to strike when I'm driving..
The only feeling I have : 'blank'?
It's not that I didn't have any clue on how to drive a car.. I do know how to drive but, I just doesn't seem to enjoy it. Trololol

I'm done with the license now. :))